Missing grams...

I don't know why ive become this melancholy as ever...

It's been like 3 years since she passed away. Maybe because my last visit to her graveyard. And when i visit the beach nearby those missing feeling grew stronger. I know im not the best grand child that she ever had.

I've oftenly neglecting her when she's around. And when she stays at my home for medication iver her diabetics, I even move more further from her. I feel bad every time i remembered that i oftenly doing rude stuffs when she ills. like eating the foods that shes not supposed to eat right in front of her. Or refusing her help to ease the pain when ive got motorbike accident. i know that hurts a lot. i still dont know why i do that.

In contrary over what i did on her, she always treated me nice, welcomed me nicely when i came to her house, served me with a lot of fruits she picked up from her very own garden, or cover me with blankets when i was cold at midnight. and her smiles was always make me laugh and chills me down.

Grams, if you can hear me, please forgive me over my bad behaviour and wrongdoing when you were alive.... I miss you a lot...

Nu getaway

Imagine this...

Virgin beach. Nice clean sands, grey not white. Great view of sun rise. Cold fogs. Cold sea water. The waves just that perfect. The winds blew gently rubbing your face. The purest air just filled up your lungs... Its perfect isn't it?

Well I tell you what... It's real, and you don't have to go to Bali or those great tourists spot, cuz it's densed already, and it's not fun. I just found it at my mums village. only 3km from my mums house and i dont realize its beauty yet until last weekend. cuz everytime i went there, its holiday time, the crowdest moments ever.

I guarantee its total kewl...

there's just few people around, some are fisherman, no smokes, no one selling things, no other noise then the waves sounds, it's a perfect getaway from crazy, hectic, wild, smoky city.

when i was there, it's just like I let those burden away from my shoulders. my lungs cleaned up, all dirts was washed away by those fresh sea waters, the music in my ears were replaced by the serenades of winds and waves. And it's been awhile ive never felt that kind of sensation.

I'd really like to went back there again. ...

Adios... for a while

I'm taking dayoffs for couple days. Cuz ive already had enuv of hecticness, and i cant stay here longer no more...
Im thinking bout goin to my mums house back in Java. I miss the beach. Its completely different kind beach with ones in Bali. It doesnt has those white sands(its boring anyway), not much of people knew that theres a beach there, near to a cemetary complex so you better be carefull if you wanna go there by noon (anyway the sunset is a glam). What else...
Kinda secluded, a great place to be alone, enjoying sunset, or maybe sunbathing (my doctor says i dont have enuv ultraviolets to burning up my skin, tanning oil doesnt help, i need sun rays to strengthen my body, just like Superman when he just weakened by kryptonite in the movies). My plan is to go there n have those sun to bath me up as soon as i get there.

I dont care bout that NY fashion week carry on. I can take those glimpse of brands newest collections in Jakarta then. Anyway, believe it or not I saw Winona Ryder and Kate Moss walking together in Marc Jacobs show on Wednesday. Ha...ha... exes of Johnny depp walking out together. That's pretty much great views and photos for johnny.

So next destination... Beaches along java coast :D
Cheers, Adios...

chicken

Didn't make it to watch emmy's delay show. My eyes were too bloody heavy and I completely forgot the schedule. Nothing's new but it's okay anyway...

I've just read (or trying to understand to be exact) dee's blog recently. There are some essay that kinda tickels me. It's about her journey to be a vegetarian and bout how she called herself with a latin name bout vegetarian. And how shes happy bout taking a decission as a vegetarian. She writes about how she sees stuffs being a vegetarian.

I'm the one who doesn't like to see the animals to be slaughtered for us to eat.
Bukan juga orang yang suka ngeliat binatang2 itu disiksa seblum leher mereka dipenggal. Dan nggak termasuk orang yang konsisten akan perang melawan penyiksaan binatang juga. Kadang mikir sih gimana orang yang selalu berkoar2 tentang perikemanusiaan padahal mereka sendiri menyingkirkan perikemanusiaan mereka waktu ngiket berpuluh2 ayam dan menggantungkan ayam2 tersebut kepala di bawah, kaki di atas, dibelakang motor. Dan ketika sampai tujuan, pembantaian pun terjadi...

No wonder people can be so brutal in life. If they can't treat their minor respectfully, how can they respect their equals?

It's time to learn how to respect around you I guess...

Salute to Dee, who can respect them and shame on me, whom until today still cant fight the desire to eat meat.